Sugar Shock

When I feel lost and scared as I often do when it comes to my body I tend to look around for answers. I look for answers in friends, in medical articles, in diets and in bloggers. It makes sense that I always end up just comparing myself to those I emulated and feeling like a disappointment everytime.

I see a blogger doing the C25k and I think I should really do that, it is working so well for her and then I do it but can't do quite as well, so I feel ashamed and like a loser. I see a co-worker doing WW and losing weight and since I am not I hate myself and hate her a little bit too.

I can't seem to really find my place, I keep looking and looking. I'm still doing WW but not emphatically since I didn't join so I have no groups or online support. I still basically write down what I eat and am careful. I just don't feel comfortable, I feel like I need something that I can hold onto. I feel like I just need more confidence.

I am considering going back to therapy even though financially I don't really want to spend the extra money but I think it's necessary.

Also, I am joining in on Self-Esteem Awareness Month