Whining
4 September 2009 | 8 Comments
We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path.
-- Paulo Coelho, Brazilian novelist
I really want to know my own path but I don't yet. I feel so much like I'm the only one. I know we each have to find our own way in our own time. Am I not looking hard enough? Am I not ready? Will I just trip over it accidentally and go "oh yeah, that's it"? Do I just wait until I find what I'm looking for or do I just keep trying anything and everything until something fits?
I read books, I find the most amazing bloggers with amazing experiences, I write my own thoughts until my hand cramps and I'm still so very much unsure. I feel a little better about myself on an emotional level but physically I still feel like I'm sinking.
At this point it's not even so much losing weight or losing inches. I mean that is still important but the focus has shifted a little. Now I just want to have the motivation and willpower to get myself to the gym or get out and exercise several times a week. At one point I was doing so well (early summer) that I was going to the gym just about every other day, sometimes 5x a week, and everytime I went I felt better and better.
That, would be enough for me right now I think but it never lasts. Something always happens. Either I get sick or it's that time of the month or I get depressed and realizing I have to start from scratch just kills any desire I have.
Where is that magic pill? Where is the genie in the bottle? Where do I sign up?
Oh and more about my own path can be read
here.
This is really a great, thought provoking post. My path changes constantly. And not just the weight part, but the life journey path.
Where I am today in my life is not where I would have ever dreamed I’d be. I really thought I was heading to work in New York City in finance, but I’m definitely not there.
My path is the one that is right before me, and personally, I’ve learned to try to make goals, but enjoy the path I’m on.
Does that make any sense at all?
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Robin Reply:
September 4th, 2009 at 5:50 pm
@Diane, Fit to the Finish, that makes so much sense and i’m so glad you commented here because you’ve helped me so much.
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It took me forever to finally figure out that no matter what i do people will be what they want to and chose to be…all i can do is be the best me. Any who. Totally makes sense and is actually very relaxing when i stop trying to be like others and stop trying to change others. Talk about a feeling of freedom. Thanks for sharing =)
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Robin Reply:
September 4th, 2009 at 5:54 pm
@Fitness Surfer, i’ve worried about other people for so many years and compared myself, it’s something i strive to stop doing and am making progress albeit small.
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My sister could have written this post! She’s in the exact same place as you. I think what Diane said is true- the path changes constantly. And if you don’t know where you are or where you want to be or where you want to go, then that just means that you have to do some exploring down a few different paths to test it all out.
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Robin Reply:
September 4th, 2009 at 5:54 pm
@Sagan, so my journey right now is about exploring and trying new things, that works for me.
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I can totally relate to this post. This part of the process is actually very valuable, because it lays the foundation for what is to come. It’s an opportunity to learn more about yourself and discard outdated ideas and perceptions. Trust your inner voice and you’ll be fine!
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Robin Reply:
September 5th, 2009 at 8:31 am
@Hanlie, I am trying to appreciate it, the journey, some days are easier than others but I suppose that is part of it =) I am a big believer in instincts, I even think I have good ones I just tend to ignore or not trust them.
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