Thinking
16 October 2009 | 12 Comments
Another topic discussed in therapy was again why I self-sabotage. Why when I'm doing so well do I jump in my own way?
I used to have a bumper sticker that said:
Oh no, not another learning experience
That really speaks volumes about my psyche. Learning experiences are rarely fun. It's not like, yippy! I got a flat tire and it's snowing out, what a
great learning experience!!!
I thought back to the last time I was doing really well with exercise. It was at the beginning of the summer when I was doing the C25k and I was like 3 weeks going strong. I felt better than ever. Every time I got on the treadmill I was doing better. I was proving to myself that I
could in fact do this.
I was trying to remember what got in my way? Did I just get frustrated? Did I get sick? Did I just get a blister on my foot and admit defeat? No. I remember actually I had a valid reason. I was dealing with some medical issues I'd been dealing with for years but now it was getting so bad not only was it hard to run it was hard to walk. I was sick of the pain and put off the treadmill until I felt better.
I didn't feel better. That was why I went to the doctor and was put on new medication, the new meds finally started to work but by then it had been weeks that I hadn't been on that damn treadmill. I didn't want to start from scratch again, starting from scratch really sucks a lot.
It's like working on a paper for weeks for school, you reserach, take notes and type it up for hours on end. Then one day your computer crashes and you lose everything, all your hard work. But then if you just give up that means you fail and that option really isn't a viable one. You learn your lesson and you start over.
Learning isn't fun but I suppose it's necessary.
100 Day Challenge
- Exercise 3 days a week (Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday)
- Water everyday (I tend to forget on weekends)
- Protein every meal
Next week:
What snacks do you bring to work?
That’s exactly what happened to me in 2007 — medical problems kept me from working out and playing hockey. When I finally started doing some exercise at home in the beginning of this year and got the courage up to go ice skating in March, I sprained my ankle and had to keep off of it. I’ve been off of it since.
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Barb Reply:
October 16th, 2009 at 9:47 pm
P.S. – I meant to tell you earlier that Angelo sometimes sleeps like this.
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Robin Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 2:50 pm
@Barb, medical problems are so frustrating because you have no choice but it doesn’t stop you from feeling like a failure anyway.
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Barb Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 3:02 pm
@Robin, exactly. Having medical problems and its consequences doesn’t mean you’re a bad or lazy person, but I know I sure feel like that anyway.
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Celery, nuts, boiled eggs, sugar snap peas, nothing. It just depends for me.
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Robin Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 2:51 pm
@South Beach Steve, i LOVE snap peas. I must get more.
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I’ve never been good at looking at the upside of unpleasant learning experiences. I get frustrated with myself. But eventually I, like you, try and be philosophical about it and move forward. It’s definitely not easy.
Have a great weekend!
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Robin Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 2:51 pm
@Diane Fit to the Finish, i’m great at being philosophical!
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I understand about jumping in my own way, Robin–I’ve certainly done that often enough in the past. I work from home so I have to make sure my refrigerator and pantry are stocked with nothing but healthy foods. In the past that wasn’t the case and when I journeyed into the kitchen from my office, I’d catch myself nibbling here and there on trigger foods that ultimately led me to overeat. Very bad idea. It’s much better to be safe and in control. Now I drink lots of water and tea and try to avoid any snacking at all while I’m working.
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Robin Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 2:52 pm
@The Crazy Woman Inside Me, funny thing is the last time i was home for a few months was the last time i lost weight. true story.
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I like the 100 day challenge! Your blog looks so pretty! I must have missed out on the updates while I was on vacation. I freakin love snacks. Nothing too interesting, but here are a few:
- cheese and fruit
- cereal, nut and fruit mix (homemade)
- yogurt
- bars
- nut butter on two ryvita crackers
- portioned out nuts
- hummus and taboule
I could go on, but I’ll stop.
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Robin Reply:
October 19th, 2009 at 2:52 pm
@Jess (Fit Chick in the City), i love all that stuff.
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