This Time Of Year
There are many reasons why this time of year is probably the worst time of year for me.
- It starts getting really cold and really dark, and leaving for work when it’s pitch black is just not a healthy way to start off the day. Plus when I get out of work it’s basically dark too. I need sunlight to grow.
- The drivers get nastier, I swear. Everyone is tense and on edge, ready to snap. Everyone cuts everyone off and gets seriously aggressive.
- I’m not a fan of Christmas for many reasons, one of them being that my whole life I felt left out because of it and I just wish I could will it away. But mostly I hate how commercialized it is, it all seems so fake.
- All of the “stuff” that goes on leading up to the holidays makes my anxiety increase so I regularly have a stomach ache.
- I get really down on myself because I know I will have to socialize with family and friends, therefore I feel ashamed about how I look.
- We have never had enough money to really get into the holiday spirit, particularly this year. However Erik and I have just not been the type to do gifts for occasions, we do gifts when it feels right. We would both rather have some personal than something just bought.
- Because of the cold and how dark it is all the time my energy drops dramatically.
But I did go to the gym last night. Every time I go I try to celebrate that because in itself is an achievement.
The above quote holds a lot of meaning for me because it’s pinpoint accurate. I hate the fewer hours of light this time of year, as well as the stress that comes with the holidays — and its commercialism. I do, however, enjoy giving gifts whether or not it’s for an occasion — especially if it’s “just because.” On the other hand, I don’t like feeling obligated to give them.
Celebrate any thing you can!
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My office mate gets so blah because of the light change she got one of those neat full spectrum lights for her desk that simulates sunlight. I go stand in its rays sometimes.
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I don’t know where you live, but I hate the winter for so many of the same reasons as you. It’s dark, it’s cold, it’s ugly outside. It gets me down too.
Christmas is a huge thing for my hubby so I try and go along and be supportive, but for me, my early childhood Christmas memories weren’t so wonderful, so I have some things about the holiday that I don’t love. It’s hard because I want to love it all for the kids, but I have to fight getting snippy about the holiday. That’s probably more info than you wanted!
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I know what you mean about the cold and dark this time of year. I am ready for the days to start getting longer instead of shorter. It is coming soon.
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