I have been wanting to post a list of what I eat again for a while but everytime either I don’t finish my list in it’s entirety OR I am so ashamed by how bad it looks that I don’t. The problem is, how can I ever learn if I am not honest with every little thing I eat? In fact, as I was posting this I realized I had forgotten my exercise and the beer I had.

I realize the Burger King, Smartfood and Reeses were not good choices. I will say though I have been good about sugary treats lately and this was just a little something I needed. In retrospect, I knew better I should have had 1 reeses not 2.

I got the Burger King because I had to go out to the doctors at lunch to get my blood drawn and it was right next door. It was either that or come back and have a frozen lunch, which is much less appealing.

The Smartfood was one of those instances where I was on my hour plus drive home and bored and hungry. I really need to keep more snacks in the car.

So for better or for worse, here was my food from yesterday.

The way you cut your meat reflects the way you live."
- Confucius

I cut my meat strangly. I inspect it first, carefully. I cut it open to make sure it isn't bright red and oozing blood. I then start cutting it into pieces. Then I will cut every inch of fat off the meat and put it over to the side. Then I will start eating but will keep a lookout for more fat and when I see it I will cut it off too. I end up with often nearly 1/2 of the steak or chicken leftover.

I don't know what this means but whatever it was an interesting thought that went through my head.

How do you cut your meat?

First I want to mention a breakfast idea I came up with a while back that I consider to be pretty healthy. I wish I had a picture but I don't so instead you get a picture of my girl Aurora licking her lips.

A really easy, quick and healthy breakfast I like to have sometimes is what I will call the Waffle and Raspberries Sandwich. I know, it sounds strange but it's really simple. I toast up 2 nutri-grain blueberry waffles, heat up some frozen raspberries and make a sandwich out of it.

No sugar added. You can eat it with one hand and it's filling if you use waffles with a lot of fiber. I'm still on the hunt to find the perfect waffles, I like what Trader Joe's has but they aren't convenient for me to go to.

I also want to mention, although I'm hesitant because I'm afraid this is a fluke, but I've lost a few pounds. I don't know exactly how many because the last time I was weighed was at the doctors and my scale is always different than theirs. I seem to have lost what I think is between 3-5 lbs.

I haven't really changed anything, not that much, I think I've just been focusing on food less and life more. That always seems to work for me, the more I worry about food the more I seem to lose control. I'm also right now back on medication I had stopped taking months ago, more on that another time.

But yay, it feels good to feel a little more control of my own world. Losing control of your world is excrutiating, no matter what it is. We can't make everything exactly the way we want it to be but we like to have a little bit of a say from time to time.

Thanks everyone for your support!!!

I have a naturally healthy side despite my obsession with breads, cereals and sugar. No really, I swear.

I love vegetables, I always have. My mother never had to force me to eat my broccoli or carrots, I love them just as they are. No need for butter or cheese, just a pinch of salt. I learned as an adult I also love spinach and brussel sprouts, who knew? I'm generally too lazy to make them but I should make them more often. We try to keep lots of frozen vegetables in our freezer. My mother did however have to nag me to eat meatloaf. Yuck.

I rarely eat fast food. If I do it's usually a bagel w/cream cheese at Dunkin Donuts or it's a hamburger at Wendys. I've never been a very big fan of fast food and have avoided it for a big portion of my life. I generally hate McDonalds, Big Size Me kind of solidified my feelings. I have only eaten at Taco Bell twice in my life and I don't like it, that's not Mexican food.

I only have a soda like once a month if that, most of the time I forget about it. I decided one day to stop drinking it and it just kind of fell off my radar. I am not a fan of diet soda so it's generally no soda for me. Sometimes I like to mix a little orange juice with seltzer for some fun but not very often.

I've never used cream in my coffee, only ever milk. I used to only use skim milk until I met my husband who was used to whole milk so we compromised and now have 2%.

One of my favorite breakfasts to eat in the morning is my Erik McMuffin and it actually has kind of a sweet story behind it.

When my husband Erik and I were first living together years ago he would get up with me in the morning to make me breakfast. He started making me english muffins with egg and cheese just about every morning. After that he'd take me to the train, which was only a few minute walk away but he liked to say goodbye to me at the train. It was something special we did, everyday, and it made having to travel so far by train for work more enjoyable.

It's nearly 7 years later and he still gets up in the morning to make me these. Although now they are whole wheat english muffins, the cheese is usually lowfat and sometimes it's egg whites not a whole egg. I still love these, it's delicious, easy to eat while driving to work and it's probably one of the healthiest things I eat since it's a good balance of carbs, protein and fat.

I love that not only are my Erik McMuffins full of healthy stuff but full of love too <3

Well now that I'm on this journey to eat better, to feel better and to be a better version of myself I've been trying new things. Sometimes I'll try something and it's just not for me but then there is the occasional time I find something healthy that I fall madly in love with.

A little while back I was complaining to a friend how much I love a good burger but the meat itself is so fattening. She suggested buffalo meat and I scoffed (to myself) that this sounded weird. I mentioned it to my husband and he ran out and got some (without asking picky ol me). He cooked me up a burger on a whole wheat bun and you know what? It was delicious! In fact, I found it way more tasty than a regular old cow burger.

I love shopping at Trader Joe's and about everytime I go (every other month usually as it's out of the way on my drive home) I try something new. This time I got the Greek Style Honey Yogurt and wholy hell it was SO yummy. Granted, I got the regular kind not the lowfat but the taste was so subtle and perfect. It was not too sweet but just enough flavor to rock my world.

My world was rocked by greek yogurt and I'm good with that!

I love Fiber One bars, they are convenient and taste good but there could be so much less sugar. I'm trying really hard not to crave sugar so much but it's hard to find convenient sweet snacks that aren't loaded with it.

I checked out the isle of similar bars and I couldn't find a bar with less than 7 grams of sugar. Not one. I know a lot of times they put in a lot more fake sugar but why must everything be so sweet?

I feel the same about yogurt. I want a yogurt that is very low on sugar but with no fake sugar either. I've never been able to find it.

Seems to me I should probably make my own food from scratch, which seems like a lot of time and money. With the life I have I tend to need convenient and cheap as often as I can.

Plus, I want to share another lesson I learned yesterday, one I've learned before and never can seem to remember when it counts. Here is my tweat:

I haven't slept well the past couple nights, I don't know why but because of the lack of sleep I am waking up late and not making the best choices. Whenever I'm dead tired in the morning and in a rush I tend to get myself a vanilla latte at Starbucks, it's not the healthiest or the cheapest option.

Everyday I say I'm going to get up at 5:30 so I'll have time to do everything I need to do but then I end up getting up at 6:00 instead, getting stuck in the later traffic and being late for work. Welcome to The Reasons Why Robin Can't Get Her Shit Together.

What could I have done differently? Baklava was an obvious mistake but I knew it at the time? Why did I have some? Because I kept craving it and I don't know why. The worst part is that it wasn't even very good baklava so I settled. I also waited too long to have lunch so it kind of threw my whole day off. I'm trying right now to stay under 1800 calories and if I can do that I will lower the amount. I also want to eat more protein and less carbohydrates.

I like keeping track of my food but I'm not always good at it. The site doesn't like to work when I'm at work, stuipd only IE6, so by the time I get home it's usually slipped out of my mind entirely.

I just had raisin bran this morning and am still drinking my coffee. I'm not hungry, I love not feeling hungry. Later I want to go for a nice bike ride and will bring my inhaler this time. I want to take pictures and embrace the day, not the food.

Enjoy your day!