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Portions

Robin — Tue, 02 Feb 2010 15:37:22 +0000

I am still working out, regularly. Not everyday is me working up a sweat but I am several times a week. I’m also still trying to watch what I’m eating and I want to learn more about portions but not sure how to start. I have seen those guides to compare this to a stack of cards and this to your fist but that still throws me off.

I would like to start measuring or using certain containers to help me visualize. I want to start counting the crackers I eat instead of just eating out of the box. Still my main focus right now is exercising and tracking my food.

I’m also changing my daily calorie amount from 1800 to 1600, I don’t know if I’ve made enough changes to do this but we’ll see…

How do you keep track of your portions?

Side Note: You can see all my workouts and food tracking in the sidebar.

New Years Revolution

Robin — Tue, 05 Jan 2010 13:47:43 +0000

I’ve been typing up posts for this blog and not posting them. I’ve been rolling around thoughts in my hands and then dropped them to pick up later. I’m still going to therapy and there have been one too many doctor appointments. I won’t lie. I gave up for a period of time, I feel like I’m swinging this mallet over and over and making no dents. You’ve heard this all before. Hell, I’m sick of saying it. I had to get a mammogram. It sucked, especially since I shouldn’t have had to get one for another like 5-10 years but at least everything is ok. My doctor mentioned hypothyroidism. Super. I also learned that Diabetes II runs in my family. I feel like I’ve gained weight. Sometimes I feel like, what’s the point in blogging here if I’m only going to complain but I know this at least serves a purpose to me and hopefully others can relate. It helps to know that something you are struggling with is understood by others. But I’m ready to again start moving upstream instead of just letting the current drag me downstream. I have so many goals for this year, many of which don’t even have to do with my health. I do, however, want to make a dent. I have no resolutions. I want a revolution. --------------- Also I am on DailyPlate if any of you are.

Attainable Goals

Robin — Thu, 05 Nov 2009 13:46:30 +0000

So after chatting withSteve (he's so helpful, all of you are) I realized not only have I accomplished a few real goals I set for myself in the way of exercise but I am ready for a new one. I don't want to push too far, something really attainable. Here were my goals so far:

Get back to the gym *CHECK*
Make it an entire workout without asthma attack *CHECK*
Do entire route (nearly 2 miles) on bike and making it over every hill *CHECK*
Do Week One workout of c25k entirely *CHECK*

Now I'm not sure if I want to move onto Week Two or if I want to try for longer time. I guess my question is, what is better? To increase my time on the treadmill or increase my speed? You see, I've never really had an interest of doing a 5k, I just want to be really healthy and in shape. At the same time I want actual atainable goals, goals that won't be too hard to attain. Small steps. Oh and Aurora is mad at me for doing this to her. And by mad I mean she is a lot meaner to me than she usually is. But it's worth it for this picture.

The Right Way

Robin — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 11:56:00 +0000

In my entire life I have only ever lost weight the wrong way. Either by starving myself or by diet pills. Even when I was at my thinnest I was so unhealthy about it that it was bound to turn on me eventually.

I lost weight the first time as a teenager after my first breakup, I went from 160 to about 115 in only a few months. I rarely ate and got very sick.

By the time of my next boyfriend I was so obsessed with eating that it corroded our relationship. I was taking up to about 8 diet pills a day and I was a miserable person to be around. Take your worst day of PMS and multiply it by 10, that was how awful I was.

I went off to college and I started to find pieces of happiness again but I still was holding onto my old destructiveness. Eventually the destruction slipped through my fingers like water and I gained weight back, eventually back to where I started from.

I lost weight again because of depression. I never ate and stayed in my room by myself.

I gained weight again after college.

It went back and forth but the weight loss was never from actually taking care of myself or treating myself well. I always lost weight because I tortured myself or punished myself into it.

I don't have faith yet that I can lose weight the right way but I want to have faith that I can. One of my goals is to realize I do have this ability.

100 Days

Robin — Fri, 25 Sep 2009 11:56:56 +0000

100 days doesn't sound so bad, especially when it's taking on a goal I can do without feeling like I am being punished. I decided to take this challenge thing on I have heard about and since it started on September 23rd I can tell you so far I have taken the stairs once a day.

Every work day I will take the stairs at least once, by stairs I mean these stairs. They taunt me everyday.
I will drink water everyday, no set amount but I tend to go days sometimes without drinking any.
I will have protein with every meal.
I will try to choose a healthy snack over a high carb snack.
I will avoid negative thoughts about myself.

I may add to these goals as the days go on but I will always do these goals I have listed already.

My Portrait Goal

Robin — Wed, 23 Sep 2009 12:45:33 +0000

I have a bunch of goals for when I lose weight, I feel like a poser since I haven't actually lost any weight yet but writing about it keeps it fresh in my mind. One of my goals is to get another photo shoot but the next time to feel really good about myself.

Engagement

I got married last year and one of the most important things was to get a photographer that suited us perfectly. That photographer was Rachel. She really apperciated our quirkiness as a couple, that was very important to us.

Boudoir

I love the pictures but I still remember how uncomfortable in my own skin I was for all of the pictures. Someday, hopefully sooner rather than later, I will have photos done again by her.

Wedding

I figure maybe I'll take pictures in my dress again one day, I never went by the rules for my wedding why start now? That is one of my goals.

Cherrishing Pain

Robin — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 12:58:17 +0000

If you don't have confidence, you'll always find a way not to win. ~Carl Lewis

I think, for a long time I was cherrishing pain. I held onto it, coddled it, and surrounded myself by it. I couldn't understand or grasp anything other than hurt and sorrow. It was quite nearly who I was, a smile was a foreign concept.

I've been so negative for such a long time, particularly towards myself, that I have to consciously remove the bad thoughts every day all day long. My husband gets so sad when I say bad things about myself but I tell him that is only a small percentage of what is actually going on in my head.

Everyday I try to push myself just a little bit, not too hard so I rebel but just enough so I feel a little bit better, to prove to myself that I have something more in me than it seems at that moment. Sometimes it's focusing on a specific kind of food (ie. vegetarian, extra protein, etc.) and sometimes it's just a little extra exercise than I think I can manage.

The past week we've been going for bike rides in our neighborhood. It's a struggle physically because I am so out of shape but it's also a struggle emotionally because my poor husband has to keep waiting for me to catch my breath. He's great though, he doesn't mind he's just happy to be along for the ride with me.

So I have a few mini-goals that I am going to focus on. One of them is to ride up my street and back (that is about a mile, with a few hills) without having to stop. I know I can do this, I will do this. Luckily it seems exercise is kind of like childbirth, somehow you seem to be able to forget just how hard it was until the next time or so I've been told...

Bite By Bite

Robin — Mon, 13 Jul 2009 15:28:15 +0000

One of my biggest issues and has been since forever is that I eat too fast. I don't know how to eat slower, quite honestly it is how I was raised. My mother eats so fast and recently I noticed my brother eats even faster than I do, his girlfriend even commented on it.

Here are a list of reasons to eat slower but I've always known why I should, the trick is how to. I know I eat slower when I'm talking more so maybe I need to talk more.

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I had a productive Saturday but I have a very unproductive Sunday. I have no energy today and I had less energy on Sunday. I would really love an energy pill, oh wait, that's speed, nevermind.

I really don't have the brain power to write more today.

Am I Really Willing?

Robin — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 08:49:53 +0000

Am I really willing to take the steps I need to in order to be healthier? Am I willing to get exercise several times a week? Am I willing to say no to the extra bread on the table? Not quite but I am getting there. I focus hard on getting protein and not going to Dunkin Donuts to get a bagel with cream cheese. I have to at least once a week get myself an Iced Vanilla Latte at Starbucks, I need just one. I'm trying to get less and less syrup in it everytime though. I'm keeping busy most weekends, this is a huge plus in my life as I think I spent most of last summer hiding away, same with the summer before that. Today I go to Rockport and will be wandering around taking photos. Last night, I admit I had a brownie. Yes, a gooey fudging delicious brownie. I decided I needed one and I figured it was time for me to learn to have ONE and that was it, that was my goal for that moment. So we made brownies. I enjoyed ONE brownie. Then we cut them up, wrapped each one in saran wrap and put them in the freezer. I'm contemplating bringing the rest to work, that's the last part of the goal for me. Have a good day!