Sugar Shock

I miss going for a bike ride or a brisk walk down my street after work or on a weekend afternoon. What is it about the winter that makes you never want to leave the house? Maybe it’s because you have to bundle up before you even open the door or maybe it’s that you have to think about every step you take so you don’t slip on ice? There are so many reasons to give up in the winter and I’m trying really hard not to let the winter win this year.

I have a few DVDs I’m working with but none are really fitting me how I’d like but I don’t know what it is I want. I have a bunch of the 10 Minute Workout videos and I do like them. I mean I love the idea of having them in 10 minute increments depending on my energy that day how much I do. I was disappointed to find out that the two dance videos I got I was having too much trouble keeping up with the moves and dancing used to be my thing. When did I become a 45 year old 31 year old?

My 32nd birthday is approaching. In fact, it’s exactly 1 month from today. I need a goal but I don’t trust myself to complete it. I want to for the next 30 days workout every single day, even if for just 10 minutes. I want to prove to myself I’m still really young and haven’t given up.

ps. Any good workout videos you can recommend that are fun but not so hard that they will make me throw up my hands in the air in defeat?

Every time you go to the gym you may not lose weight, in fact you probably won’t, but there are some things that one trip could do:

• One trip to the gym could keep you from gaining some weight.
• One trip to the gym could give you some extra energy.
• One trip to the gym could keep you from overeating that one night.
• One trip to the gym could put you in a better mood.
• One trip to the gym could remind you how strong you are.
• One trip to the gym could give you some extra confidence.

These are the reasons I try to remind myself of when I’m driving home from work and all I want to do is get into my pjs and zone out the entire world. Sometimes they work sometimes they don’t. With the bitter cold temperatures and the snow covered ground it’s been harder than usual.

I haven’t died or crawled under a rock. I’m hanging in there, which is the same I’ve said for a while now. I wish I had someone to pull me out of whatever I’m in or just make things a little easier so I can pull myself out.

There is nothing I can tell you that is different right now but I’m still kicking, know that. I’m going to therapy, working on myself and have actually sold some of my photography. I’m just, managing right now and trying not to fall completely off the tracks.

I miss having daylight when I get home, it changes my entire attitude. I want to go for walks and bike rides and this is not something I want to do when it’s pitch black, 20 degrees and there is ice on the ground.

I am just complaining, it’s all I have when it comes to my health and well-being. I will be back, just taking some time off. Once I feel inspired again and on the right track I’ll be back, it could be tomorrow or it could be a month from now. I hope you’ll all still be around, you are all constant inspiration.

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