I decided that afternoon I was going to look for some of the more healthy options of food at the grocery store. One thing I got was the agave sugar, which has a better GI level than regular sugar. It has a slightly different taste so it will take getting used to.

I also picked up some bars that I noticed other foodies have mentioned and will try them over the week. I got myself some more of the greek yogurt with honey. The brand I got I didn't LOVE like the Trader Joes brand but I did like it. I decided to go with the cheapest brand, at this point in time.

On Sunday we went for our usual bike ride. I wanted to ride a few times during the week but as you know I was so tired all week. I think I've been so tired because my husband says with my horrible allergies I am not sleeping well. I am not sure what to do at this point. We did clean the whole living room. We even stripped the sofa apart to clean every inch.

As you know my goal is to be able to do the whole length of our street without stopping. It is 1 mile but it is all hills, which obviously is the hardest part. I nearly did the whole ride but then one of my gears went wonky and I had to fix it.

I feel really good about that. I just need to keep an even keal right now to keep my head above water.

I am proud to say I did about 1.5 miles, I just wanted to test it out and prove to myself I could still do it. My next goal is to drive around our neighborhood, down the streets I've never really gotten to see. Also I can now go further in the neghborhood to take pictures, I'm so excited.

My goal this week is to be more optimistic, it's not easy for me as I'm naturally a kind of pessimistic person. I am going to learn to appreciate myself for what I am now and not what I hope to be one day. No more talking down about myself or beating myself up. No more self-destruction and no more impossible expectations.

How can I expect to do any good for myself if I have no hope for myself?