Sugar Shock

Every time you go to the gym you may not lose weight, in fact you probably won’t, but there are some things that one trip could do:

• One trip to the gym could keep you from gaining some weight.
• One trip to the gym could give you some extra energy.
• One trip to the gym could keep you from overeating that one night.
• One trip to the gym could put you in a better mood.
• One trip to the gym could remind you how strong you are.
• One trip to the gym could give you some extra confidence.

These are the reasons I try to remind myself of when I’m driving home from work and all I want to do is get into my pjs and zone out the entire world. Sometimes they work sometimes they don’t. With the bitter cold temperatures and the snow covered ground it’s been harder than usual.

• Financially we’re in a bad place, which means it’s really hard to eat well but there is no excuse to over-eat. We’re trying to stay calm and figure out the next step. My husband has some home projects that will bring in money, that helps, but that will only get us so far.
• The holidays are coming or are here, or whatever. I am not a fan. I grew up a little Jewish girl so I don’t have fond xmas memories and even if I did I’m pretty sure I’d hate it all now considering all the commercialism and how mean everyone gets. I tend to go into hibernation mode all of December.
• I have  had a few doctors appointments lately,  but I feel like they are all pointless. It’s like I keep hoping someone can explain all my problems but I just go in circles.
• I am going to be able to have a table in a bazaar at work next week to sell my photography, I’m nervous, plus I had to order some prints to sell, which we can’t afford but I know I have to do this.
• I feel a lot of things in my life just aren’t working the way they are right now, I don’t know what that means I just know this is how it seems to me right now.
• I am getting back into the gym thing again, I figure a good excuse to go is to release all the pent up anger I have right now.

My camera's battery requires recharging, I can't just replace it with brand new batteries it has to be taken out, plugged into the wall and I have to wait until it's finished recharging. I often forget to recharge it and then I will find myself out taking pictures and the battery will die on me. I have to think about the battery on a regular basis so that doesn't keep happening. I guess I am the same way. Sometimes I require time to turn it all off completely and just let it rest. Sometimes I need to plug myself in and renew. There is no replacing with something brand new, there is only recharging. Emotionally and physically I ran out of steam a couple of days ago and I had nothing left. I've had trouble sleeping the last couple of days again because while my battery had died I couldn't turn off the worry, that must be solar powered ;) So last night I went to the gym, just went despite how tired I was down to my bones. I went to the gym and just driving there I could feel my energy rising. The workout was great, I was still in the stride that I was in last week and in fact never once in the 20 minutes needed my inhaler. I am recharged.