Sugar Shock

The greatest discovery of my generation is that a human being can alter his life by altering his attitudes. ~William James

I've had a lot of negativity in my life over the years, I try to weed this kind of thing out of my life. It's not easy, some of my earliest memories of friends were people who used me and bullied me. Despite that, nobody, not even all of these people put together, has ever treated me as badly as I treat myself. Sometimes I really take notice of the thoughts that go through my head everyday and I think if anyone actually heard this stuff they'd be horrified. For me, thinking such negative/destructive things about myself is second nature, it just happens without even realizing it. It's the parts of ourselves that are so deep set that are the hardest to change. When these thoughts infest my brain I can feel the damage immediately that it is causing. I can feel it coursing through my veins and coming out my pores. I try to push the thoughts away but more seem to come back everytime. The best I can do for myself is to try very hard every single day to focus on the positive. I make sure I eat foods that won't drain my energy, lack of energy never helps when you are trying to feel optimistic. I make sure I dress nicely and have clothes that fit me right. Nothing brings on negative feelings like pants that are a size too small. I try to notice the world around me and how much bigger it is than me and my little problems. I just keep trying because nobody else can put in the effort me but myself.